2008

It's now 22 hours counting down to 2009. 2009 would be a very challenging one for me, with changes of environment and all the unknowns. However, this time, I'll leave the unknown to be unknown and to celebrate the new year to come, I'll do something different in looking back at what 2008 have brought for me in this entry.

2008, travelling from having my 1st election time, addition of 50mm lens to my camera collections, 1st ever trip to Redang Island with finally able to snorkel with a 'swimming' knowledge (I know I'm too old to just learn that) after all these years, 1st ever Tequila shot, 1st ever mini skirt in front of you-know-who-you guys-are, 1st ever met up with Big time International Big Star-Michelle Yeoh and a lot more....appreciate a lot what I've gained from it. Thank you to the colleagues and friends who have been giving me support and encouragement during my down days. I'm having fun to get to know you all better through all the fun & chatting session that we had. Not forgetting also friends from my childhood who had been accompanying me through the whole year with loads of fun and activities that kills my time whenever I'm bored. I will definitely miss all of you when I'm away.

The best thing that I had was I finally manage to realize the dream that I have been yearning for the past 10 years - a Working Holiday Visa to UK. Yes, I'm going to stay in UK for at least a year starting from February 2009, and also taking the opportunity to travel around UK and definitely Europe as well. Also, this will be a good life experience and memories that I'll be having and at the same time a very great challenge for me. But with the supports from friends and family, I'll strive hard with courage. Lastly, thanks also to my parents for always being there and for your good health so that I'm still able to chase this dream without much worries. Thanks also to my siblings who have been supportive as well, especially my sister who had been supplying me with the winter clothing which I'll be very much in need for the trip.

All in all, life is still not too bad to me. I'm content. Looking forward for another fruitful year, 2009.

Short Attention Span

Have been seeing these phrase for a long time which had inspired me to pen down something about it in my blog. Why is it so? Partly because I know I have a short attention span. I'm interested in everything and would love so much to learn everything that I could if given the chance, at the same time, I get bored easily. Someone reminded me that I never had a permanent job before since I graduated 8 years back and looking at my resume, ya, it's so true. I can't imagine myself sitting in the office going from 9-5 everyday; and going on every week and every year. But as usual, when human grew older, they tends to seek for more stability in life. I guess that goes to me as well. In one hand, I told myself when I'm there in UK, I'll have to go through what normal person have to go through on their career life -- to cope myself in a a proper timing job. I wouldn't have the luxury of flexible timing as what i have been practicing over all these years. In other hand, I'm quite unwilling to let go what I used to have the flexibility of timing in work. I just wish someone up there would just take away my 'split' personality and grant me a clear single mind to focus on what I have to focus on. Just wish me luck in the process to lengthen my attention span !!

Departure Date 14/2/09

I finally bought my one-way ticket to UK and I'm leaving on the 14th February 2009. Yes, it's on Valentine's day!! Why this day, actually it's just an coincidence, as we planned to depart on Saturday to leave a weekend for us to settle down, to look for rooms when we reach there so that we can start looking for jobs when the week starts. Since both of us does not have a 'valentine', this is just another normal day to us......And now the next step is to start looking for jobs online......

Changes...Unexpected Changes....

A friend once said, the unexpected is what changes our life. Frankly speaking, all these while, I don't like changes, in fact I hate it. Because I'm afraid of it and would by all means to avoid it, if I can. Hadn't been in stress with CHANGES for quite some time; the first biggest one came 3 years ago and the 2nd one just ended a year plus ago. Lately, I can feel the stress coming back again especially when I have got this planning of UK trip bundled with the economic downturn. Moreover, with unexpected life and changes of environment that I will be facing makes me feel even more in dilemma. Is it wise to make such a big steps at this time? Is changes good for me at this time? Will I be able to cope with the CHANGES that's coming along? Will I make it through? I asked myself and I'm still in fear....

Is it too late?

With the knowing of being away after the next 3-months, I'm starting to think that I'm gonna miss my family and friends over here. The feelings are even stronger whenever there's a gathering and everyone is just there so relax and chit chat for hours over topics and topics. Had been to a colleague Raya Open House recently and have a chance to sit down with colleagues and everyone is just brought to the past talking about the good old days. At that spur of moment, I was thinking, I'm still so NEW to the industry with only 2 years of experience while everyone with at least over 5 years of experience on the table are talking about people that I'd only hear from for the first time ever. And YET, I'm leaving in 3 months time. Thinking back, I'm starting to be in doubt whether is it a wise move to leave my career behind and go for my travel dream. Everyone had been asking me what I'd be doing there. My answer is always the same - "I do not know, I'll see what I will get". I just do not wish to plan and expect too much as Expectation always follows with Disappointment. Sometimes I just feel, is it too old and too late to 'chase' for a DREAM? with the things that I need to sacrifice over here?

My best Birthday Present Ever...

the best birthday present in my life, the working holiday visa to UK finally gets approved today! And if you would like to know what does a Working Holiday means, kindly click here

Anxiously waiting for the day to fly....