Walking my dream... 2012....

These few days had been bothering me a lot. Worrying about my future, worrying about my how can I survive myself for the rest of my life, worrying this and worrying that. Hadn't had that insecure feeling for so long and now it's all coming back. I'm not sure whether it's right to walk my dream now, when I'm not so well prepared yet especially financially. However sometimes I ponder, if not now, then when.

Came across this article in a blog, which struck my mind and answer my frustration - maybe my forever insecure feelings come from too much of expectation.

On this very last day of 2011, my resolution for the next year 2012 will be to eliminate my expectation so that I can be brave and confident enough to step forward and walk my dreams without hesistation.

Life is just like a poker game. Why bother worrying about what card you will be drawing next, winning and losing is just part of the life.

Expect NOTHING.

i SMURF u!!!

Just finish having fun with the little blue smurflings. Honestly, the trailer haven't been giving me the urge to watch this movie, especially when it's a combination or real life with 3D. One reason is I'm still attached to the past memories and I'm worry that it would spoil my beautiful childhood memories of smurfs that I'd have.
Well I'm half right and half wrong. The movie hadn't been able to take me back to the same old feelings that I had when I watched them before, however it gave me some different insights. Kind of like the message that it tries to portray. 'Every single moment is just like the blue moon, once in a lifetime - appreciate every single second of your life as it won't come twice. '

Now I wonder where can I find the old 2D cartoon of my smurfs, la la la la la la, anyone?

I'm getting my life back!!

Am going to claim my life back in 3 more days. Hadn't been quite myself. Everything just go so slow and doesn't seems to have any challenge for me. What's left instead is the anger that is created when people just doesn't seems to care about their job, or should I say, why do I have to be angry on people ignorance. Hence, I decided to leave this, decided not to be angry on other's ignorance any more. Just let them be.

I'm not sure what's the next step for me. Just have a guts feeling that I should put everything to halt now, rather than just thinking to change but haven't yet. This had been dragging for years. I need to do something different NOW!